We took pictures and videos of baby almost everyday. But as a newborn, most of his pictures are either sleeping or drinking milk... Can't possibly load up all the almost similar pictures here... Will seem boring mah!!
I guess maybe I can share my feelings as a mother so far... Before I gave birth to Keane, I never dare to carry a baby. Not that I don't like babies (in fact I adore them), just that babies seem so small and soft and fragile to carry! I was sooooo afraid that I would hurt them and made them cry! Hence I never carry my friends' babies... My friend Julia assured me that the fear will go away when I saw my own baby... How true it is!! I held Keane so naturally; no fear at all. :) However, sometimes I felt that I have no chance to carry my baby... It's like everybody is trying to carry him... I know they wanted me to rest as I am still in confinement and my bum still hurts with the stitching... But what really upset me most was when XXXX said,"The baby is not your property." Huh? I just want to carry my baby for awhile, is there anything wrong? Besides Keane is definitely MORE than a property, he is my SON; I gave birth to him! I couldn't hold back my feelings and I broke down during dinner. Post-natal blues, some may think. Nah, I am not. I am just terribly hurt by that remark. Sighz... Forget it... Now I know exactly how Julia must have felt at that time. I was unable to comprehend what she meant when she shared her feelings. I must have been a lousy confidant and listener then!!
Now... about my confinement lady, Lan-jie. The confinement lady that we wanted at first was Fen-jie who was recommended by my godmum. But after many problems and excuses given by Fen-jie, we got Lan-jie instead... She is rather unhygienic and a real glutton... I can only say that I won't recommend her to my friends... Anyway, we decided to make do with her... afterall, she is here for only a month. Lan-jie complained that Keane refused to sleep in the night... But from what I gathered, most babies are like that. I don't know how true it is, but I think that the main reason is that he has yet to differentiate daytime and night time. Therefore we have to help him establish a correct routine, i.e. daytime is for activities and night time is to sleep. Of course, this is not yet possible because as a newborn, Keane needs plenty of sleep.
Before Keane enters my life, I never thought I would become a mother. He has change my perspectives and makes me feel more settled in emotions. Sometimes, love between a couple may involves sex and money, but love between mothers and her children, it is definitely unconditional love. Baby, mummy loves you.
